How Clumsy of MeI lied when I said I was a stable person...
I'm drowning...I'm useless...I know worse things could happen...
I heard somewhere that when children are faced with a conflict that they can't face head on that they sleep...I'm thinking about regressing...
I just want someone to run my life for a little while...
I met someone...she probably will not like me by the end of this week because of all my complaining...
I find myself counting the dosages now...I'm up to 10mg...
I'm not numb enough yet...I take another 5...
I start to think about a dream I had a couple of days ago. In the dream I wake up and look next to me and there is this girl with dark shoulder length hair..I know her but I vaguely remember from where and in the dream I start to delve into my unconscious mind. She was a girl that lived next to me and we used to play together when we were kids. I do know this girl..what happened to her?
My mind is catching up with the drug...I take another 5mg with another as a chaser...
I'm at 25 now...
I smell from all the self loathing so I decide to take a shower...I get into the shower and collapse from the weight on my back...
I'm a mess...I pick myself up off the bathroom floor and finish up what I was in there for...The water feels cool against my pounding head, almost hypnotizing...
I get out and go to shave but I can't see myself in the fogged mirror...That's all I am is a blurry photograph of someone who used to live there...
I try calling my mother...she wasn't supportive but for good reason, she never asked for help in her life and she wants me to do the same...
She calls back and offers to help but she can't. She suggests maybe Geremy and I don't tell her that I called him and hopefully he can be my knight in shining armor in this epic drama.
I feel like I'm walking through a fog and my head feels heavy...I down another 10mg...
That's 35mg now....
I'll be waving my hand
Watching you drown, watching you scream, quiet or loud
And maybe you should sleep
And maybe you just need...A friend
As clumsy as you've been there's no one laughing
You will be safe in here, you will be safe in here
Miserable
--
HUGO Create Graphic Contest Round 10 // Theme: SimpliCity // For more info & to participate, surf to [link]
--
--
"Today is the day that everything changes."
I don't have a gallery uploaded, I mostly lurk around here. I think you were looking at my favourites.
--
--
"Today is the day that everything changes."
--
--
"Today is the day that everything changes."
1) I will never have time for my family
2) Very stressful job
3) You may never be able to get recognized
4) Don't want to put up with Hollywood stars prissy attitudes
The other day I was thinking that I could still do want I have always wanted to do but as a hobby. So then I got to thinking. My friend, Geremy, and I have been wanting to do films but we never had the correct equipment to do that.
So my dilemma is this I don't know that much about film editing software or about good cameras, so could anyone help me with that please?
--
"Today is the day that everything changes."
--
Life is your video game. You need to get to the end, but you never know what's going to happen, till it happens, just have fun in your life before you can't.
INSTRUCTIONS - OPEN PACKET, EAT NUTS.
(I'm sure glad they cleared that up.)
Previous Page12345...Next Page